Heart Shaped Stone

a one year old baby Catholic with a Rosary and she's not afraid to use it

Small mercies. May 23, 2011

Filed under: Uncategorized — Kortni @ 7:38 pm

For he will command his angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways; they will lift you up in their hands, so that you will not strike your foot against a stone. Psalm 91:11-12

Or in my case, a space heater. Except my little toe and the heater in question met head on.

I’ve stubbed toes before. It might take me a minute to regain my composure, or my foot feels tender for a few seconds. I’ve never curled up in a ball and cried like a small child in serious pain over it until Saturday night. The pain eventually faded enough so I could sleep, and in the morning it looked perfectly normal.

Sunday after church, I took my shoe off and discovered ugly red and purple colors where they shouldn’t be. Not being able to walk quite right sent up a red flag, and I expected the worst: broken bones. Even the pictures of broken toes on Google looked like my foot did yesterday.

I have always wanted to learn ballet. I want to dance for my Daddy, to bring Him glory in some small way. I just figured that out a few days ago. A broken toe would all but end that little dream.

If that’s what he wants, then that’s what he wants. I wasn’t upset; my days of arguing with God are over, because he wins. If he’s got something else in mind, he’ll point me in another direction. After this weekend, I don’t even have it in me to cry over it. Call me a defeatist, but I had simply had enough. It’s done.

The x-rays showed it all this evening.

Not a bone is broken. Not a thing out of place.

It still hurts to walk. It probably will for weeks.

But there should have been a fracture.

Someone had my foot in His hands.


One Response to “Small mercies.”

  1. vitaconsecrata Says:

    whoa. that’s painfully awesome.

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