Heart Shaped Stone

a one year old baby Catholic with a Rosary and she's not afraid to use it

Twelve weeks, three days. July 19, 2011

Filed under: Uncategorized — Kortni @ 7:54 pm

I’ve screwed up.

My signal from Home comes in and out a lot. Sometimes all I hear is static. Sometimes I hear things I shouldn’t be hearing.

I’m upset. I’m a bad friend. I’m not good enough.

I have a lot of making up and catching up to do.

I said I was sorry, but it doesn’t feel like it’s enough. I still feel yucky. Maybe I’m having a hard time forgiving myself. Maybe I’m just awful.

I can’t sleep, but I’m exhausted.

I miss my Daddy. I can hear Him, but for some reason I can’t get close to Him. I don’t know why.

I keep thinking I can work my way back to Him. Earn him back.

I know that’s not true.

I’m just Homesick.

 

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