I’ve screwed up.
My signal from Home comes in and out a lot. Sometimes all I hear is static. Sometimes I hear things I shouldn’t be hearing.
I’m upset. I’m a bad friend. I’m not good enough.
I have a lot of making up and catching up to do.
I said I was sorry, but it doesn’t feel like it’s enough. I still feel yucky. Maybe I’m having a hard time forgiving myself. Maybe I’m just awful.
I can’t sleep, but I’m exhausted.
I miss my Daddy. I can hear Him, but for some reason I can’t get close to Him. I don’t know why.
I keep thinking I can work my way back to Him. Earn him back.
I know that’s not true.
I’m just Homesick.